Looking for Direction

  The days have been shorter than usual this summer, at least in my opinion, time is speeding up according to my perception. This concept has pressed in on my conscious and has led me to question where I am and what I am doing and where I am going. These questions are usually answered when we eventually find our spouse along with a particular trade or craft that sets the course for our future.

  The answers to these philosophical questions usually don't come easily or all at once and require our own personal thoughts and intentions to be taken into consideration before any answers are offered. Historically trial and error is a reasonable method of deduction and besides being instructed to wait on God, we humans tend to be impatient and jump the gun quite regularly in regard to what I refer to as "our Calling". I have been struggling internally to define and determine my own calling for much of my adult life and from where I am today, I do not physically see any great advances on the horizon.

  In the past, financial stress easily overwhelmed me and caused a fight or flight scenario, a history of low credit scores, a foreclosed mortgage, a bankruptcy, unfinished projects and failed attempts at entrepreneurship. I have made several attempts at attaining a higher education however each time, lack of finances have caused an early end to my studies. 

   I found some success in restaurant and hotel management early in my career and used those skills to further my knowledge and experience base for landing entry level corporate management positions. I worked my way up the ladder until I needed to expand my education beyond my current field. I outgrew my position but lacked the fundamentals needed to continue to move up.

   I thank God for his provision in my life and I know without him, all the the money in the world is useless. However I still wonder, why is it that I have not found my life's passion in a career. I love work and I love to work towards goals that present improvements to others and myself.

   I am looking for direction and believing in the Word. Proverbs 3:5-6 Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;
and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths.

  I acknowledge you Father, you alone know the truth and my heart. I am trusting you to lead me to my calling and give me direction.

In the name of Jesus, amen.