Miracle God

My initial post to this blog set the stage for showcasing the God given miracles I have experienced in my own life and those around me. Today I present the most impressive heavenly miracle I have so far experienced. My long-time friend and one-time partner in crime was diagnosed with stage 2 testicular cancer approximately 8 months ago, today he received the good news his cancer was gone.

I know what you are thinking, the advances in medicine and treatment made this possible, previously, my old self would have agreed. This was different, my friends doctors did not have a great outlook for him since his cancer had spread from his testes to his lymph nodes from the lymph nodes to the lungs and liver. He received a very potent form chemotherapy (cisplatin) the treatment alone can cause death or severe disability for many patients.

He endured months of chemo treatments, I went with him to a few appointments, it was a wholly depressing and base experience. The suffering along with the financial burden the people who are going through these treatments is enough to make any person question everything. I remained faithful and did my best to support him and promote his healing through confirmation of Biblical truths. I can only imagine the thoughts of doubt that were attacking my friend, his life has been an extreme roller-coaster for the past few years.

He was having difficulties recovering from each treatment and was suffering delays between the treatments which could have diluted the viability of the treatment. His personal family life had taken a severe thrashing in the years leading up to this, a wicked divorce and loss of full custody rights to his only child. Many men in his position would have just assumed to give up and see if the afterlife is all its cracked up to be. Instead he began confessing Isa 53:5 "And by His stripes we are healed". 

Last week I noticed a real breakthrough in his attitude and resolve. He explicitly stated to me that he had been healed, he actually believed the words of our savior that he had been speaking. "It doesn't matter what the test comes back as, I am healed" he repeated to me again and again and I agreed with him. It seemed surreal to me because he hasn't always been so outspoken, in fact in the past his statements were littered with doubt and disbelief, this time was different.

Early today he called me and we agreed that he was healed before he went in to get his results, he reiterated that he was healed. About 30 minutes ago he called with the news, the results were in and he was completely clear of any cancer cells. The joy in his voice was inspiring and gives me chills he is praising and worshiping God.

 His daughter has come to visit him for the summer and he is in the best place he has ever been. My God is so good to his faithful servants, I implore you to give your life and heart to my miracle working God just as my friend did and see what miracles he has in store for you. My God's name is Yahwey, Jesus Christ, Ruach HaKodesh.

Looking for Direction

  The days have been shorter than usual this summer, at least in my opinion, time is speeding up according to my perception. This concept has pressed in on my conscious and has led me to question where I am and what I am doing and where I am going. These questions are usually answered when we eventually find our spouse along with a particular trade or craft that sets the course for our future.

  The answers to these philosophical questions usually don't come easily or all at once and require our own personal thoughts and intentions to be taken into consideration before any answers are offered. Historically trial and error is a reasonable method of deduction and besides being instructed to wait on God, we humans tend to be impatient and jump the gun quite regularly in regard to what I refer to as "our Calling". I have been struggling internally to define and determine my own calling for much of my adult life and from where I am today, I do not physically see any great advances on the horizon.

  In the past, financial stress easily overwhelmed me and caused a fight or flight scenario, a history of low credit scores, a foreclosed mortgage, a bankruptcy, unfinished projects and failed attempts at entrepreneurship. I have made several attempts at attaining a higher education however each time, lack of finances have caused an early end to my studies. 

   I found some success in restaurant and hotel management early in my career and used those skills to further my knowledge and experience base for landing entry level corporate management positions. I worked my way up the ladder until I needed to expand my education beyond my current field. I outgrew my position but lacked the fundamentals needed to continue to move up.

   I thank God for his provision in my life and I know without him, all the the money in the world is useless. However I still wonder, why is it that I have not found my life's passion in a career. I love work and I love to work towards goals that present improvements to others and myself.

   I am looking for direction and believing in the Word. Proverbs 3:5-6 Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;
and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths.

  I acknowledge you Father, you alone know the truth and my heart. I am trusting you to lead me to my calling and give me direction.

In the name of Jesus, amen.

The Little Door

This morning I was feeling rather slow and downtrodden until I listened to what the Holy Ghost was telling me. It started with the phrase "Mischa Barton". So I did what any young man would and looked up Mischa Barton on the internet and found out what countless women my age already knew. Mischa was a gifted child actor who grew into a starlet on the hit TV show "The OC" and eventually let her partying get the best of her and ended up doing B movies after a short stint in a mental hospital. Last year she made headlines for suing her mother for misuse of her assets, but there wasn't anything explaining why I woke with her name on my tongue.

The actress wasn't the missing soul mate I had always longed for and even if she was there would be no having that because I am already happily married and I know full and well the Father does not tempt us, but the Lord does works in mysterious ways.

Later in the morning I heard another word - "The little door", I searched Google and found a beautiful poem below and a gorgeous hymn on YouTube, I realized while I was listening to the song and reading the article, He had led me right to him, each word he was telling me had meaning beyond my imagination. I was in the middle of writing a letter to a friend when the revelation came: I was led to search for the meaning of the name "Mischa". Of course "Mischa" means "what is like God?" At the bottom of the blog entry is a link, please click in order to experience the majesty, if only for a moment.

G. K. Chesterton's "Here is the little door"

Here is the little door, lift up the latch, oh lift!
We need not wander more but enter with our gift;
Our gift of finest gold,
Gold that was never bought nor sold;
Myrrh to be strewn about his bed;
Incense in clouds about his head;
All for the Child who stirs not in his sleep.
But holy slumber holds with ass and sheep.

Bend low about his bed, for each he has a gift;
See how his eyes awake, lift up your hands, O lift!
For gold, he gives a keen-edged sword
(Defend with it Thy little Lord!),
For incense, smoke of battle red.
Myrrh for the honoured happy dead;
Gifts for his children terrible and sweet,
Touched by such tiny hands and
Oh such tiny feet.

Jesus is the little door. He is the way! The Lord inclined my ear to his words and this is what he told me. Jesus is the little door.
To reiterate: I woke the day speaking to myself  "Mischa" or what is like God?" - and later found the answer "the little door". The little door is Mischa - Jesus Christ is the only thing like God.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSaabcCPoJY 

A Strong Deluding Influence

Good day

The past few months aka the first quarter of 2015 have been challenging. There is much work to be done in the Fathers Kingdom, the veil is being lifted. There is a coming outpouring of the anointing on Holy Ghost filled Christians. Has God unleashed a strong deluding influence to allow the unsaved to be judged? I pray for guidance in my writing and place the glory on our Father. I am here to honor the Father and give blessings and Thanksgiving to the Messiah and discern by the Holy Ghost.

The year is flying by, here we are halfway thru May and I can't get used to the beautiful weather fast enough. I was up late after an unwelcome homecoming and brief yet intense spat with my wife I resigned myself to the guest room to sulk and attempt to calm my raging anger. I resorted to reading a few random verses of the Bible on my tablet (first the Lord directed my attention to Proverbs 14:28-29 Auth KJV

28 In the multitude of people is the king’s honour:
    but in the want of people is the destruction of the prince.

²⁹ He that is slow to wrath is of great understanding:
    but he that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly.)

Around 4:00 am when I began to nod off, boom, I was having a supernatural vision of the spirit realm, it could have lasted for just a few moments or it might have been a few minutes.

The actual words to describe what I saw have, so far, been difficult to arrange. The importance or relevance of the vision has yet to be decided. I am currently waiting on the Holy Ghost to reveal more to me about what I saw and I am expecting revelation. What I can describe is as follows: It was either a window to the spirit realm or perhaps what I saw was a spirit or a demon perhaps, maybe even the enemy himself. It had a slowly circulating pattern of deep colors and there were paisely colors much like how someone would describe a hallucination derived from LSD however the halucination was confined within a specific field of my vision allowing me to visually judge both the spirit entity in addition to the plain normality of my actual surroundings in the room.

The entity had a clear and vivid link to the New Age California lifestyle, the hippie culture of psychedelics was evident. It, whatever it was, is comprised of the essence of pagan rituals and witchcraft throughout the redwood forest area of Northern California. 

This is not an effort to scare anyone or even mystify myself. I want nothing more than this to be nothing more than my overactive imagination. However, when I asked Jesus for guidance regarding the matter, he answered my call with this: "A Strong Deluding Influence."

 

A Piece of Heaven on Earth

Good Day

Living in the border region of west Texas and southern New Mexico provides a positive environment to grow and learn. We are blessed with beautiful weather, delicious food, kind people and unlimited opportunity. Many of the regions population are financially challenged or living in poverty however the transformative power of Jesus is alive and well and his blessings in the region are evident and flowing.

In 1992 my mother moved my 2 sisters and me with her to El Paso's west side when I was approximately 12 yrs old. I welcomed the new form of city life and access to large schools that I was not accustomed to in Sierra County NM. Unfortunately, rebellion and poor judgment was a constant embarrassment to my family, friends and my friends parents. El Paso didn't experience the financial success and economic growth much of the rest of the US experienced during the 90's and has been a regularly overlooked destination for middle class incomes when relocating.

As soon as I saved up enough money for a plane ticket, I moved to Kauai HI, with my brother, to flea what I saw as an impossible financial situation in El Paso. I came to find out finances are much more difficult to manage in Hawaii than I could have possible imagined in El Paso. Eventually I went without food for several days due to limited opportunity and I called out for help. My mom sent me enough money for a plane ticket and I unceremoniously left back to El Paso after about a year of struggling on the island.

Philippians 4:19 "But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus". I force my spirit to utter this verse when I notice doubt is creeping into my mind. Doubt is so difficult to identify, many times it enters our minds as something logical or normal and we then accept a lie from the enemy without actually acknowledging it. This is why the Bible tells us in 2 Corinthians 10:5 "Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;". 

A majority of the El Paso locals are generational immigrants to the region; recent census estimates are close to 90% Mexican/American population. Mexico, just a few miles from my doorstep, has a tumultuous past of large scale financial hardships and elitist corruption that leads many of the Mexico's poorest population to seek relief by traveling north and finding work in the USA. Historically El Paso has been a primary passage for millions of immigrants into America. The name El Paso is translated: the pass. 

Nowhere else, besides California's San Joaquin Valley, is Gods laws of seed time and harvest more evident than right here in the Rio Grande Valley. All the way from Albuquerque down to Presidio, TX and eventually the gulf of Mexico, we unwittingly rely on the agricultural systems of farming and ranching to supplement the food and sustenance for millions of border dwellers. While I do find myself in awe of and appreciative of the vast amounts of resources and capabilities of modern agriculture, I place my faith in our savior Jesus and his ability to provide for his sheep as our Shepherd.

Dealing with Doubt

   Twitter has become a personal fascination, I find myself combing through vast amounts of tweets, it can be a great tool for sharing the good news and keeping current on everything from local events to global politics. Occasionally, I am challenged by opposing personalities who's world views differ from mine. I am fairly outspoken and I always welcome different perspectives in an effort to sharpen my own philosophy and rebuttals though I haven't always been this way.

   I started my twitter profile in early 2009 mostly because I was not pleased with Facebook and wanted a more "intelligent" platform to spew my opinions. Eventually I caught on to what twitter was really about: Be a pseudo celebrity by remaking your own worldview to emulate those of the celebrities and artists who commanded large numbers of followers. I followed suit and eventually made a small niche for myself among other like-minded.

   By 2011 I was regularly, verbally assaulting strangers. I would go off on someone or everyone. I was losing my sanity in 140 characters: on occasion, I posted pic of cash and another post was of my handgun. During this time I was very unstable, both financially and psychologically. Thank God my redeemer Jesus welcomed me back into his Kingdom and gave me the free gift of salvation.

   If you are unaware, the majority of the twitter landscape is a propaganda machine that supplants an illusion of free speech to the users but only broadcasts a very limited perspective. It seems, when someone disagrees with any number of specific promoted ideologies, they will in turn be attacked by groups of roving, combative, trolls and possibly relegated to obscurity; it's akin to being forced to leave the cool kids lunch table in high school.

   The "trends" is a method employed by the service that logically displays the most often tweeted words, phrases or "hashtags" and lists them in an order of popularity on the dashboard for the users "convenience". This could be an attempt to create key words and introduce them into the psyche of the user as a term of elevated importance. #KONY became one of the first publicized dramas to play out on social media that eventually reached the majority of mainstream media outlets. On the surface it seemed to be a good social cause: help eliminate genocide in Africa by tweeting and it very well could have done good in raising awareness. However, recently, we witness twitter behind the promotion of hate and violence being spread surrounding #furguson: In my opinion, a mechanism to promote a victimized culture of civic disobedience and social chaos.

  Currently, there are several varying iterations of the micro blogging platform littering the digital landscape, providing "safe" outlets for the frustrations of humanity. The philosophy of atheism, hedonism and sexual debauchery is on full display and offered for interaction with anyone and everyone in the general public. Almost everyone who gains traction on Twitter or Instagram falls into one of following categories: rapper, stripper, promoter, model, artist, feminist, shirtless wonder, lgbt activist or a lewd pervert. Mark my words: the twitter deception is a very real and powerful attempt by the enemy to dissuade believers and non-believers from the Fathers Kingdom.

  Thank God for Jesus, my life has changed for the better and so has my twitter profile. Before, I would spend hours preparing vulgar language to insult others, now I use my God given ability to debate with based tweets in agreement with Biblical doctrine. On occasion I have been attacked by atheist twitter gangs and ended up spending days debating, thankfully the Holy Spirit gives me insight and provides the answers to the really tough questions. I pray for the lost souls who would dissuade another from belief in the true God of the Bible.

Work and Home Life

  Work and home life balance is generally a struggle and difficult to define. Our home partners can feel unappreciated if there are not constant reminders of just how appreciated they are while our work partners want a sense of approval through recommendations and achievements.  While some partners may feel he or she is meeting the expectations of the other parties, there remains conflicts and disappointments regardless of how much time you spend at home versus time at work. Work partners are generally less emotionally distraught when we show up late or forget an appointment.

 My role as an enabler with the power to delegate is exactly where I want to be at both work and home. I am learning, more now than I ever have, being a devoted husband is very demanding. The elusive balance can be achieved in imaginations, whether or not we ever actually achieve this ideal is highly subjective. Currently, if I was to time myself at home vs work and compare the quality of my life on those measurements there would be some evidence in favor of my home life. However if you asked my wife she would probably ask for more attention.

 The thought of becoming obsolete becomes quite a frustrating issue for many newly minted fathers and businessmen. Eventually an individual resolves to behave and base his image on the manner of livelihood he actually lives versus how he wants to view himself or wishes to be represented. The results can be quite different, hence maturity is always quite elusive with aggressive entrepreneurial men. Mature too quickly and you risk losing your creative drive and ambition, while your team members carry on like drunken frat boys enjoying the fruits of their labor in appropriate, and inappropriate manners.

  With the assistance of the wonderful individuals God has placed by my side we can achieve what millions of Americans and billions of others only dream about. A good balanced home and work life.


  God Bless